"can u read my mind?"

More stuffs!

2009-10-06T22:25:00.004+08:00

Hey guys, here are more stuffs. Do support me! =)

Earrings: Full swarovski crystals
Length: approx 4.5cm
Price: $12.00

Earrings: Japan clay flower with pearls and swarovski crystals
Length: approx 7cm
Price: $14.50

Earrings: Purple sandstones with swarovski crystals

Length: approx 5.5cm

Price: $15.00

Bracelet: Jasper stones (mineral)

Price: $11.00

My creations (the beginning)

2009-10-05T21:47:00.015+08:00

Hey! It has been such a long time. I have been busy and lazy so did not update anything. I am starting an online "business" selling the accessories I make. I have been making these accessories for a long time already. Just that I am lazy to take time out to start up something. So I hope I can have ur support and do let ur friends know abt it! If u are interested just drop a comment or email me directly at yuki_syn@hotmail.com. Thank you! =)

Earrings: Swarovski crystals

Length: approx 6.5cm

Price: $10.00

Handphone accessories/key chain: Japan UV bead with pearls and swarovski crystals

Length: approx 16.5cm

Price: $14.50

Handphone accessories/key chain: Antique bead with pearls and swarovski crystals

Length: approx 14.5cm

Price: $11.00

Handphone accessories/key chain: Japan clay rose with purple sandstone and swarovski crystals

Length: approx 13cm

Price: $10.00

Handphone accessories/key chain: Japan clay rose with cup chain and swarovski crystals

Length: approx 12.5cm

Price: $9.00

Long time

2009-05-20T17:17:00.001+08:00

Ok I haven't really got the time to blog. Just one quote before I leave:

"Be strong and depend on urself"

My feelings

2008-12-09T01:35:00.004+08:00

1. I dun think I can ever tell anyone how I feel coz I will irritate or affect others.
2. I love and hate looking at blissful pictures.
3. I feel inadequate.
4. Tears love to stream down my face.
5. I need to appear strong.
6. I hate to say this but I feel unhappy.
7. I swollow my anger.
8. I can't allow myself to sound irritated.
9. I need to find happiness in a hard way.
10. I hope I can handle anything that comes my way.

Aft a long break...

2008-12-05T12:35:00.002+08:00

Ok I know I haven't been blogging. Have been really busy and lazy. I guess I'll start again.

I was neva the practical person. I always deal with other pple's emotions first. I am always taking care of how others feel and I try my best not to say or do anything to make the person feel bad/angry/sad, etc. To me, as long as the person feels happy, I'm quite willing to do anything within my means. I'm usually easy-going coz I want others to be happy so I usually agree with everything as long as it seems fine with me. But I have problems keeping up with my easy-going personality when I'm to blame when something bad happens. I become quite defensive and argue my way thru. My tolerance level for agreeing drops drastically. I hate to admit that it is entirely my fault. Can something that goes wrong be entirely a person's fault. Do we look at situational factors that could have contributed to the mistake made? Well I guess it lies on a continuum: to what extent it's caused by internal (personal) factors or external (situational) factors. I think most pple tend to attrbute their own mistakes to external factors, but others will attribute it to that person's internal factors.

Maybe I'm strong headed and always want to try to put my point across. But I've tone down lots of it. It also hit me hard when pple deal with the practical side of my mistake. Being an emotional person, I feel neglected in my emotional needs. I will end up feeling very bad and guilty abt what I've done. I realised that this is my weakness, I really need to be strong emotionally so as to deal with the situation practically. But yet retaining the emotional sensitivity towards other pple.

I dun have control over how others treat me and I dun have the right to tell others what to do. The only thing within my control is my character and how I treat others. So I have to perfect it and I can proudly say that I've done it right.

thoughts...

2008-10-22T13:49:00.002+08:00

I was browsing thru my colleague's wedding photos... Seriously speaking, sometimes I feel like getting married... Haha... Coz the couples in the photos look so happy and blissful together. But I know that is just in pictures and in reality, this is not so true all the time. Haiz, but this is just a thought la... Getting married is definitely not easy... You need to think abt expenses, plan for the future and of coz whether you are very sure you want to settle down with the person.

But I guess it's still too early for me to think abt it. Haha... As for now... I'll continue to admire other pple's wedding photos... =)

damn tired...

2008-10-21T15:54:00.002+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging. I'm really tired nowadays. Don't know what to blog as well. All I can say is that I miss my sch life as a student. School life as a teacher is sucky. See now I don't know what to write liao coz I seriously can't think. Think I'm going home to sleep... Yawnz...

something's bothering me...

2008-09-21T00:54:00.002+08:00

sigh... there seems to be something tat is bothering me but i can't really explain wat it is... sometimes i feel i'm getting bored with my life... everyday the same old thing: go sch, teach, scold kids, get angry, feel bochap, mark books, prepare lesson, wkend, then repeat everything again...

tat is y i cherish every outing i have with my friends as it is something different, something out of my routine life... sometimes i really want to plan something special for him but it's hard to carry out as he is really busy...

so i feel really disappointed when activities tat r planned got to be cancelled due to unforseen circumstances... coz i hold on to them dearly as i really look forward to them, especially if it's with him... i think i really cherish him alot... times spent with him r precious n i have to admit tat everything he says affect me as they carry heavy weight...

i try my best to accomodate to his busy schedule coz i dun want him to feel stress out to find time to accompany me... i jus want him to be happy... he means tat much to me...

ok, i think the choya is making me tired... another sat has passed... i dun feel gd at all... time out...

feeling uneasy...

2008-09-07T21:00:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling really really terrible... i'm really stressed from work n i have my driving test tmr... i've neva been so afraid for any test b4 for the past 23 yrs of my life... i really dunnoe wat to do to ease my stress now... i'm feeling so moody... =(((

new term resolutions...

2008-09-07T20:08:00.002+08:00

ok, i always try very hard, but it's jus not easy to follow through, but i'm still gonna try...

1. sleep by 11pm everyday
2. read the news everyday
3. record spending everyday
4. apply body moisturiser everyday

recent likes...

2008-08-20T08:24:00.008+08:00

my recent likes... i love this panda!!! it's one of the olympics mascot... i'm so gonna buy him! i mean soft toy la... haha...

if u dun know, there r actually 5 olympic mascots:

if u realised when u add up the names it becomes: bei jing huan ying ni. which means bei jing welcomes u! interesting right? n they also represent the olympic rings (the colours). n lastly they represent the 5 elements: water, wood, fire, earth, wind (respectively).

another like is stereogram:

u're supposed to see a hidden 3D image in the picture... ok u jus need to look at the picture with crossed eyes... to learn the various ways do visit this webpage... http://www.ixtlan.ru/faq.php#Subject3 it's really fasinating once u managed to see them... u'll get addicted for a while.. but this really amazes me! haha... by the way u're supposed to see cranes in the above pic... 2 cranes in the middle, a sun on the upper left hand corner n mountains in the background... do let me know if u can see it k? this is the only time to say tats it's cool to be crossed eyed! haha...

looking for these 2 pple...

2008-08-14T14:31:00.004+08:00

ok, one of them was my pri teacher Esther Leong Kit Yee n the other was my pri sch best friend Tiffany Leong Mei-Wei... tried to google their names, did find a match but they did not provide much details... so it kinda failed... haiz... tried friendster n facebook as well... but it's too hard to find... so if any of u guys happen to know either of them do let me noe k? thanks...

singapore flag printed wrongly...

2008-08-13T08:59:00.008+08:00

i was looking for info online while i came across this website (http://www.math.nus.edu.sg/aslaksen/teaching/flag.shtml)... this photo depicts a wrongly printed spore flag during an award ceremony at the Asian Games in Busan, Korea in 2002. if u still din notice the error, it's at the stars... if u din realise, our stars r arranged in a pentagon with one star at the apex, but this photo shows an inverted pentagon! OMG! how can they print wrongly???!!! haiz... anyway, this website is interesting in a sense tat it shows the astonomical problem with the spore flag, quite chim but can jus read abt it... haha...

ok this reminds me of the inverted china flag the boy was holding during the march in beside yao ming during the opening ceremony of olympics 2008...

can u imagine how embarrassing it was... i mean china is the host country n yet this kind of thing happened... i still think it is quite impossible... i mean how come noone notice it? it is such a huge error, n it has to be the boy walking in front holding it... it is so obvious... damn xia suay...

perfect...

2008-08-08T13:24:00.002+08:00

today was perfect... my best day in sch so far... it's national day celebration today... so as u know, all the pupils gathered at the basketball court... everything started slow, they started with the national anthem, sch song n pledge as usual... then came the community singing, where u can see the lower primary pupils were happily waving their flags n singing their hearts out, but the upper pri pupils were like less enthusiastic... i was supposed to take a pri 5 class today... they seem ok, looks quite manageable...

on the bus to bishan stadium, i gave them some riddles n they told me some, so i kinda build a gd rapport with the students... then they started telling me funny things abt their class, ok in other words, gossiping abt their classmates... it was quite boring over at the stadium coz we need to wait for the program "connect singapore" to start... there were some student volunteers teaching cheers to pass our time... this was when i started to be a little more enthusiastic... coz i've been very passionate of saying n leading cheers... (i've been doing it since JC) haha... so i led the 4s n 5s in a cheer...

abt 1130, we moved off to form the longest human chain holding hands n saying the pledge (together with students fr other schs), apparently to set a guiness record... the class were very united n they actually started the 'rulang' wave... i was really happy to see them so enthusiastic... then over the radio 91.3 FM, announced the countdown to hold the hands, but there was no cue to start the pledge... so in the end it was not tat successful... when we're moving off, i think it was a little boring waiting for others to move off, so i told them to sing some national day songs, n they did... which i was really impressed... i was so happy to see them happy...

on the way back i actually sang 2 songs for them so they'll keep quiet... it was quite effective n i think i've grown to love them but sadly i'm not taking their class...

i think i'm a better teacher outside the classroom as i can lift their spirits n get them to be united n ra-ra... haha... well i think i need to build rapport with them outside the classroom... idea...

a sparkle of hope...

2008-08-07T12:37:00.002+08:00

went to the defiant class today but i was very happy coz they r very well behaved today... was especially impressed with a particular student... he was really attentive n he looks at me when i'm talking! how i wish everyone is like tat... haha... lessons were not too bad today n tmr is national day celebration... going to bishan stadium for some connecting hearts thingy... the students were supposed to join hands... i think set some record or something...

mood today is slightly better, but i'm still feeling unsure abt certain things... n this is bothering me... but as i've said, i'm the one who created this mess, so i've got to be prepared to accept all consequences... jus let things go my way this time?

life...

2008-08-06T11:41:00.003+08:00

lives infact... assembly period was singing of national day songs... i was kinda touched to hear the whole sch singing... it's like the whole hall coming alive... before u noe it, it's the chorus n u can hear them singing louder... quite amusing at first, but it's a really nice feeling... well now i'm feeling so low, so even the slightest thing can make me happy... i also got to sing, so i guess it kinda lifted up my mood as well... now i feel more positive n i'm sure things will turn out alright... but yet i still have a feeling of uncertainty n insecurity... so yup i'm still lost... = (

death...

2008-08-06T10:33:00.004+08:00

my EM3 students jus made me really disappointed... told them so many times n wrote on the board to do n bring their revision papers today. but abt 1/3 of the class either did not bring or did not do... i told them 1 wk ago n yet i get this, some of them still smiling... also told them to bring their social studies text book n work book yest n yet some did not... told them to do a summary of the chap, some did not write a single word, i'm really disappointed...

there's noone for me to tell all this to... i'm so down, so many things on my shoulder now but there's noone to share it with me... i'm so losing hope now... i need a spark in my life... feel like dying...

- i got to hang in there, i need my flame-

- but i only have chocolate now-

a matter of life n death...

2008-08-06T07:41:00.003+08:00

measured my blood pressure in the morning, it was ok, but my heart rate was 111 beats per min... i think i will die if this continues... think i'm seriously a cardiac reactor, it will race like crazy whenever i'm nervous or anxious... even my resting heart beat is quite high, abt 75 bpm. well tats besides the pt... i did not sleep well last night, had alot of things in my mind. i think i did drift off once but yet wat i dreamt abt was the prob... it was kinda the biggest hurdle in front of me now n i'm trying to overcome it... always have been wanting to solve the prob but i jus dun have the courage therefore i've been procrastinating all these yrs n things din get better n sometimes it got worse... so i am pushed to the corner now with the hurdle in front of me... i have to get over it now, if not, i'll be stuck there forever... i jus have to take the first step forward... i took it this morning, i got some things settled... i was a little relieved, tat things were not so bad as wat i thought it would be...

think my heart is beating slower now... but i'm feeling really tired coz i barely slept an hr last night... n of coz tats besides the pt... i got to conceal my real feelings, i muz be professional n can't let my emotions take over me during work. i'm calm now but my mind is still in a swirl. i've got to solve the 2nd part of the prob aft work n i'm thinking of how to put it across nicely... n hopefully aft tat, i can confidently said i've solved the prob... n i won't disappoint someone... i can't let him down again... i have to learn fr my mistakes n pray for his forgiveness... i sincerely apologise, i'm really sorry...

- disappointed with myself, i've been trying very hard to be a better person, but i still screw it up. i need to be strong n accept all consequences. i'm the one who created the mess, i've got to clear it up. learn fr my mistakes, dun let it happen again. i can do it, dun give up on me-

wish...

2008-08-05T10:48:00.000+08:00

i jus want a happy family...

my weakness...

2008-08-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

i prefer it when i complain to pple abt something, n tat person stand on my side n agree with me rather than telling me otherwise... i would feel irritated n annoyed if anyone does tat... how i would react would really depend on the person... n it irritates me more if the person is somebody impt to me... i mean when u're already very angry regarding tat incident n u jus want to tell someone, it is quite frustrating if the other party tells u how u shld have done it another way...

guess i jus dun like being given suggestions at the wrong time, n i guess i shan't complain to anyone... i shall complain in my blog... haha... i've always hope all of us will say n do the right things at the right times but most of the times we dun... well, tat's reality... gonna face it...

one yr...

2008-07-15T12:47:00.000+08:00

it's been a yr already... hope u r doing well n all is fine...

commencement 2008...

2008-07-09T12:38:00.002+08:00

ok... i'm gonna collect my degree scroll later... kinda excited but at the same time nervous n sad... mixed feelings la... 4 yrs seem to fly past like this... but the timing a bit off... 8pm leh... how to take photo? how to throw hat? i probably can't find it aft tat... haha... well... i'll see how it goes later... pray everything ends on time so i can party at zouk! yesh!!!

i need to shop...

2008-07-03T01:59:00.000+08:00

retail therapy tmr...

FL out...

i need to cry...

2008-07-02T19:50:00.002+08:00

i need to get it out, i'm so holding it back, i need to cry, i'm so tired, i'm so sick, i dun care anymore, call me irrational, call me crazy, jus let me be...

*trying to look ok n behave rationally*

screwed...

2008-07-01T22:47:00.002+08:00

i feel so bloody screwed up with my life... like i keep doing the wrong things, saying the wrong things, then ending up making everyone unhappy... haiz... i really wish life can be less complicated, n i can be more independent, no need to depend on anyone, no need for a shoulder to lean on, jus me handling my own life n not affecting others around me...

u can't hold on to intangible stuff... so y be so stubborn? jus let it be... when u try to sort things out n put in some effort, things may go haywire... i get very affected when i sense things amiss... sometimes i feel i'm a little too oversensitive... n i'm very afraid to mend things tat went wrong coz i'm afraid i would make it worse, but i'm scared tat if i leave everything as it is things will neva improve... i'm always in a dilemma...

sometimes i feel i'm a failure in certain aspects of my life... tears always fall n i have to catch them myself... when u thought u found someone there but it's actually ur imagination, or maybe the someone is really there but he only stayed for a while; or someone is there, but u did not acknowledge; or maybe u have 2 people, but u jus dun noe who to choose, u hesitated a while, n both r gone...

u look, u seek, u think, u like, u love, u fall, u cry, u dream, u wish, u hope, u pray, u fight, u tried, u lost...

rashes...

2008-06-11T14:49:00.004+08:00

yesterday morning abt 4 plus in the morn i went to NUH coz my rashes were really itchy n i couldn't sleep at all... when i came home fr work at 10 plus at night, i had rashes n they're super itchy but aft bathing n applying the calamine lotion i felt better so i thought i'll be ok the nxt day but it turned out worse so had to go for a jab... the other time alwin had rashes also then aft jab he became better so i thought i muz really take the jab man...

there wasn't many pple in the hospital at tat time so i din have to wait very long for my turn... a female MO tended to me... she's a really nice lady... she could not pinpoint exactly y i get my rashes coz i myself wasn't sure... coz wat i ate the past few days were stuff tat i had eaten before... except walnut paste but i had eaten walnut b4... suspected was the diarrhoea medication tat i've been taking but it is highly not possible... well the most impt thing is tat she decides tat i'm gonna have the miracle jab!

went to this holding area for patients... waited a while b4 a nurse came to me n said she has to jab not my arm but my butt... she said it hurts a little tats y gonna jab at butt coz there r more muscles in the butt... then i was like... painful ah... oh no... i haven't taken jab for quite some time le... then she jus poke the needle in, surprisingly this was not very painful but it's aft she injects the liquid in tat was painful... but only for a few secs la... the jab was really powerful it stops the itch like almost immediately n the bumps went down aft a few mins... but the jab makes me sleepy... so the nurse brought me to the bed like those u saw in the pic below... i laid down n

cover myself with the blanket... i had to stay for observation till 8am... i think tat time was abt 6 plus...

i couldn't sleep as usual... n it was also quite noisy coz there r other patients beside me n nurses tending to them... then a nurse told me to get up coz she needs to measure my blood pressure... it was like 88/55... very low... she took the second time but still as low... so she told the MO to come... she took my BP for the 3rd time but it's still low... so she told the nurse to get me a cup of milo... i was very happy coz i'm quite hungry liao... n the milo tastes really gd!!! i've been deprived of food the past few days coz of my diarrhoea so all kinds of food seems great to me... haha... the MO took my BP awhile later aft i had my milo... the reading is abt 95/58... it's slightly better but still low... she said it's alright coz i have a low BP baseline to start with, she said i can be discharged n by this time all my rashes were gone! i mean really all gone ok... so happy... slept almost the whole day...

but today some of my rashes came back... took the medicine le... hope it'll be gone soon... =(

thoughts...

2008-06-08T02:16:00.002+08:00

jus watched sex n the city with my kor... it's a 2 n half hr show... but well it's worth it... quite nice n it made me tear... =.) it's abt love... 4 women n their love lives...

i came back... came online to see if he replied my email... but guess he's busy working... then i went to read some pass emails fr my ex bfs... they've always stayed in this folder called "stuff"... i always move the sweet emails to this folder... then u might ask... y didn't u delete them... well... if i ever delete them, there would be no more of their emails in my entire life... i would neva see their names in my inbox anymore... if i ever would, the pigs can fly n the sun would rise fr the west... haha... welll it's jus for memories sake... i can't bare to delete something tat was once dear to me... like i won't throw away stuff they gave me... coz it's for memories sake... at least today i did not tear while reading them... at least i manage to stop them fr rolling down my cheeks... heez... well... life goes on... but it's nice to think abt those times once in a while... =)

live to love, love to live... cheers to sex n the city!

i saved a snail...

2008-05-30T10:31:00.003+08:00

so cute right?! haha... saw in along a pavement... then kenneth was saying shld put it back to the grass in case someone else steps on it... so i was like: ya it's a gd idea... so i tried to pick it up... but it's so sticky la... it sticks on the floor like super glue... i was so afraid tat if i use force i might jus rip the shell off it's back... so got to change plan... took a leaf n place it infront... then it's eyes suddenly shrink back in... then pops out again... damn amazing la! haha... tried to force it to crawl on the leaf but din work... it jus refuse to move!!! then decided to jus let it crawl on it by itself n it did! then this time a few policemen walked past n asked something like wat we're doing, n i said it's a snail... then kenneth said is there a problem... which i felt was a bit fierce... haha... then they walked away... then finally i put the leaf on the grass area!!! bravo... one less broken shell!!!

it's a small world after all...

2008-05-24T00:01:00.002+08:00

i saw him again today... so qiao right... also dunnoe how to feel... haiz... guess some parts of the song 虽然我愿意 kinda speak abt my feelings... coz i feel emo when i hear tat song... ok enough of it... gonna shower n sleep... gdnight...

虽然我愿意

2008-05-23T02:06:00.002+08:00

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着
你心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

bangkok

2008-05-20T17:29:00.032+08:00

i took almost the whole day to upload these photos lor... shag can... haha... ok so now i shall bring u through the journey... =)

ok 3K513 is my flight to bangkok!

then went to level 3 to eat something... haven't been to the airport for so long, din noe got this place lor... haha... so sua ku right?

ok let me introduce, fr left to right: stephanie, stella, yihui, me n leftie...

our gate C1...

n here's the plane we're taking!

n ya... i feel so sua ku again... got free phone call to any spore numbers n got free wireless access... haha...

ok up in the air... i think the coast of spore is very straight... so obvious it's reclaimed land lor... haha...

sunset taken fr the plane... nice right?

another one where u can see singapore island...

got bored so decided to pleat leftie's hair... haha... nice right?

we reached suvarnabhumi airport at 8pm (bangkok time is 1 hr behind spore)... here's our room... there were 5 of us so had to split into 3 and 2. yihui, leftie n i slept in one room... leftie decided to sleep on the extra bed... she so nice right? hehe... thank u leftie!

we then went to khao san road... it's like pasamalam in spore... had lots of food, clothes, CD, accessories, etc...

here's the five of us posing at khao san road...

i saw a ford mustang!!! damn cool right?! haha...

here's a person selling bbq seafood... the food stalls here actually have to run away fr the police because they dun have a license... we had to follow him to get the food... he even went into hiding once n we had to wait for him outside... exciting right? haha... actually quite poor thing lor... they have avoid the police everyday... once i saw this stall owner being caught, the police took away his mesh wire so he couldn't bbq anymore for the night...

this sign is really cool... kinda true... it's abt the pple u meet... but i guess places also leave a deep impression in us ba... =)

went to eat kebab... but this is not those roadside stalls... it's in a shop...

so here it is... the sauce is really nice... it has a coconut taste... it's quite cheap too... abt $2.50...

haha... here's me posing with macdonald's... so cool right? haha... sawadika....

stephanie wanted to drink really badly, so we went to this bar... i ordered pinacolada... my friend jingda said it's gd so decided to give it a try... well it's not bad, taste like coconut n pineapple... leftie's one is very strong... n stella couldn't drink coz she's sick... then we played "five, ten" but stella had to drink water instead... haha...

went back to our hotel room quite late, by the time we slept it's abt 2am le... everything was alright until leftie went to shower for a second time n came to sleep with me... she felt itchy n she said she saw a bug on the pyjamas... so we thought maybe tat extra bed was not clean... then i started to feel itchy too... at first i thought it was psychological but then later i saw yihui scratching as well so decided to get up n check... then i found a bug on my bed!!! then when yihui lifted her pillow we saw 3!!! we were like omg... damn jia lut... so we went down to the reception n they gave us a new room... so we went to check as well... we pulled out the sheets n guess wat!!! we found one!!! (the one in the pic) so we had to go down again to ask for another room... luckily it was clean... by the time we settled down it's like 5 plus liao lor... where got time to sleep... got to wake up at 8 plus...

took this pic, i'm supposed to look disgusted (but turn out i look angry), yihui supposed to look tired n leftie supposed to look itchy... haha...

ok... 2nd day morning... the place where we had breakfast was really nice... like glass house...

here's our breakfast!!! the hotel food not too bad la... =)

through the celing of the "glass house"...

for 2nd day we're supposed to visit some temples... so as we were walking... a man approached us n told us abt sitting a tuk tuk n let him fetch us to a few temples for 20 baht! (85 cents). 5 pple only 20 baht???!!! damn cheap la... but they would have to bring us to 2 places where they can get free gasoline coupons... will tell u guys more abt it later... so 5 of us hop into ONE tuk tuk... cool right? squeeze like mad... one person had to squart on the floor... haha... ok, here's the tall buddha n 3 pple (me, leftie n yihui) r at the bottom... can u see? haha...

i took this pic when i was in the tuk tuk... onlookers were surprised to see tat we have 5 pple inside... lol...

we went to another temple but they were having prayers so we can't go in... then we sat down outside... then this man came to chat with us n told us abt jewellery... he said it's gd money to get the jewellery in thailand then sell in spore to larry jewellery... coz they also get their stuff fr thailand... he even showed us the receipt tat he bought a set (earrings, necklace n ring) n it cost 5000 USD... he said can sell for twice the amt in spore... but in the first place we have no money n my mum had a bad experience abt buying jewellery in thailand as well... she bought this sapphire ring n when she came back n ask the man fr the jewellery shop where she patronises often, the man said tat it costs lesser than wat my mum paid... so she kinda got cheated la... so i'm a bit skeptical of buying jewellery overseas... n i saw this dog lying down... so cute right? there r many dogs in thailand jus like the cats in spore... haha...

we went to this jewellery factory... but we din buy expensive stuff la... we got those cheap gemstones stuff... hehe... no money la...

here's another temple... i can't remember wat name... sorry la... but it's nice...

here's a funny one... it means "see no evil, hear no evil n speak no evil" haha...

when we left the temple, a man approached us n offered to send us to the corrections museum (how prisoners were tortured) for 20 baht but again we have to visit another place for his gasoline coupon... we agreed but this time it's not tuk tuk... it's his private mercedes!!! we were quite shocked... n some were scared tat he might cheat us... but he seems like a nice guy la... we asked him y he din get a cab... he said license for cab is ex... so he brought us to this jade store... we watched a video abt jade, like the diff kinds of jade n how to tell real ones fr fake ones... really educational...

here's the statue of guan yu made fr jade... damn ex la... but i can't remember how much it costs... we did not buy anything... out of budget la... haha...

here's the corrections museum, there is a blind in the middle, then the person on the left will shoot the prisoner behind the blind... scary right... then there r other scary ways tat they torture the prisoners, like wrap them in gunny sack n burn them, pierce a spear through the ear... etc... eeek...

aft tat we took a cab to MBK... it's a shopping centre... went to have lunch first... i ate pineapple rice... heez...

saw this super high heels... damn cool right... i think i'll have a hard time walking lor... lol...

went dunkin donuts... haha... so cute right the donuts... but the taste so so only la... not tat gd as everyone says it is...

my bites only appear in the afternoon... sianz... so i was bitten quite badly as well... haiz...

eating shabu shabu at MBK... we were so shag coz we did not sleep well the night before... haha... 280 baht ($12) for buffet... cheap right? haha...

here's our sumptous meal... got bacon, pork, chicken, beef... etc... damn nice la... felt like a carnivore man... haha...

look closely... there r numbers on the triangles... they r actually for pple to queue in the toilet!!! cool right? haha... n the toilets r really clean consider the fact tat it's really crowed in the shopping centre...

went to watch speed racer... ticket is abt $6.50... ok la... not very cheap...

but the screen is huge la compared to spore... the show very draggy leh... fell asleep during the show... keep drifting in n out of sleep... n it's really quite cold inside there... brr...

banana in pyjamas on tv in the morn!!!

3rd day: ok here's the progress report of my bites... super itchy lor, the cream we bought only make it better for a while...

took a bendy bus to platinum shopping mall... a bus conductor collects money fr us n issue us a ticket... cool right? haha...

here's platinum mall... level 5... accessories n bags... i tell u ah... the place is so so so big la... so hard to finish walking through the whole level... the things will be cheaper if u buy more than 1 piece... then they'll give u wholesale price...

ate stewed dark rice for lunch... they gave pig's blood lor... weird leh... but i can't eat this yr... according to my aunt... some superstitious thing la... haha... spent the rest of the day in platinum mall... only finished 2 n half levels... they close at 8pm lor... so early right? haha... din even go to pratunam complex coz no time... haha...

we went back to khao san!!! haha... here's the chocolate banana pancake seller!!!

it's like prata with banana, condensed milk n lots of choloate sauce... really sinful but it's really gd n cheap too!!! only 20 or 25 baht!!!

then went for this open air foot massage... 120 baht ($5.20) for half hr... only yihui n me went... coz the others either scared it's painful or ticklish... the lady massging my feet was older than yihui's one... so she din use too much strength... it wasn't painful at all lor... i even told her can use more strength... but it's a bit ticklish when she went up to the thigh area... haha...

u noe this countdown timer is for the drivers n not for the pedestrians? haha... opp of spore... the pple in bangkok like rushing to nowhere... cars r "bigger" than pedestrians in bangkok while spore is otherwise... haha...

4th day: my bites were full blown... really red n super itchy...

it's sat n we went to chatuchak weekend market!!! there is no changing room... so to try on shorts u got to wear sarong over u n u change underneath it... haha... creative right?

chatuchak is like bugis street but 10 times bigger... n they sell anything n everything... haha...

so cute right? this guy bought it for 1500 baht!!! so cheap!!! $65 they actually sell pets in chatuchak!!! gonna check it out man... heh...

our lunch... pig liver, fried chicken wing, thai saussage n sticky rice... the rice is really sticky lor... really really really sticky... haha... but the food not bad la... hehe...

the weather was not very hot but very humid... it even rained but lucky got shelter... heez...

so cute right???!!! pomeranian puppy!!!

2 chihuahuas playing...

looking enviously at the other cage when the petshop owner put in a comfy mat...

another pomeranian...

a pug... my mum dun like it coz she thinks they r ugly... haha...

they even have rabbits... n cats too... =)

took a mrt to surasak for whole body massage... it's 40 baht... it's $1.70... quite ex leh... the system is exactly like spore's past when we use this farecard... exactly the same lor... even the gates...

Siam paragon... din shop there coz it's an expensive place... like paragon in spore... haha... we want cheap cheap stuff!!! haha...

we waited for 1 n half hr for our turn coz it's fully booked as it is a sat... it's an atas place la... we saw those expensive cars parked outside, like BMW, mercedes, etc... scary sia... but the massage was 450 baht ($20)... phew... still chaep... here's our room... so nice right? haha... the massage was great... only certain areas were ticklish la... haha... stephanie was like giggling at the beginning then later she got to control her laughter coz everyone was quiet... haha... the head massage was best coz i actually fell asleep... haha...

there was fireworks coz it was buddha day... but i only managed to capture one... everyone stopped to look at the fireworks... haha...

we had to change into this... the pants were super huge la... haha... it's free size... lol...

this is the name of the place... reccomended!!! they served us ginger tea at the end... nice!

i tied leftie's hair into 2 pleats this morn... now her hair so curly... nice right? i also want lor... *hair please grow faster...*

here's chinatown where u get all the sharksfin n birdnest!!! hohoho...

our dinner: steamed snapper, sharksfin, fried chicken (not in pic), n kankong (not in pic)... n kankong is called morning glory in eng lor... haha... the sharksfin only 500 baht ($21) for 5 pple... cheap right? haha... it's tasty too... the fish is tender but really spicy... haha... total the whole meal cost 1075 baht ($46)... so cheap for 5 pple... haha... best meal man...

5th day: went to platinum n shop again... din cover all levels last time... haha... went to swensens!!!!

yihui n i ate topless 5... the rest ate sundae tower... each person only 79 baht!!! ($3.40) so cheap compared to spore... no service charge n GST some more!!! gd deal man!!!

this is leftie's swollen left thumb... quite obvious right, it's red... poor leftie n bad bugs!

this shoe so cute right... it's a mouse! got tail some more! haha...

leftie loves this... so so so cute right???!!! hahaha...

leftie bought these for yihui, herself, her sis n me!!! so cute right? chiong lesportsac but who cares? haha...

the green man is actually walking!!! haha... interesting man... this morn a guy outside the hotel told us to eat at somboon restaurant in phaya thai... he said chinatown is more expensive because it is a tourist spot... so we believed him n went to the restaurent... it's an expensive place lor... we feel so cheated... ordered only green curry n fried oyster egg... this 2 dishes cost 600 baht lor... tat means the oyster egg cost $13... damn ex la... so pissed with the guy lor... bluff us... we got to keep 150 baht each for transport to the airport so couldn't over spend over dinner...

went back khao san to get some cheap food... then saw another cool signboard... haha...

a mobile UOB exhchange vehicle! cool!

same as spore... sound s the same too! haha...

this is our hotel... look closely... they have no space so they have to put 'G' n 'E' beside each other! how amusing! bad planning of space! haha...

went to redeem our welcome drink at the hotel... haha... so long then redeem... supposed to go clubbing last night but raining so did not go... was quite disappointed but there's nothing we can do... then couldn't go on the 5th day coz our flight is at 925am so got to wake up like 5 plus to get ready... the welcome drink was some fruit punch but it was too sweet... had to put lots of ice...

went back to our room... u saw the towels... they're sealing the rooms to prevent bugs fr entering n getting out...

was packing our bags n watching MTV... this one is really cool by Ok Go http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pv5zWaTEVkI go check it out man... it's low production coz it's jus treadmills but their coordination is really gd!!! leftie is sleeping le btw... haha... n the tv is quite loud but she din hear... haha...

ok i feel sua ku again... this is for muslim to pray... they muz pray in the direction facing west... i dun noe lor... haha...

it's 545am... really bright right? the view not exactly nice... guess spore is much more fortunate... we muz really be grateful n not take it for granted man...

at the airport heading back to spore...

our plane... hehe...

the new airport is quite nice right? heez...

thailand, taken fr the plane...

chao phraya river... i think... n tat's wat yihui said... haha...

a bug caught in between the sheets of glass... how is it possible? haha... we're really paranoid with bugs since the bed bug incident... heez...

back in spore!!! bought choya n baileys at DFS... heez... too many things to carry so got to take cab home... got $3 surcharge... ex leh...

the CBD area... haha... cab fare was $23.60... 542 baht la!!! so ex... haha... ok this is a long post... so i better stop here before u guys fall asleep... hahaha... i took almost 2 days to finish this man... haha... shag... (apologise if there r many typos... i lazy to read thru la... haha...)

will be away...

2008-05-14T13:33:00.003+08:00

hello guys! i'll be away in bangkok till nxt mon... it's my grad trip, some pple ask me y not go somewhere further, i say no money... haha... sch has finally ended for me... haven't really got the time to blog abt my feelings... will do it when i get back fr bangkok... come to think abt it i only jus finished my exam last fri... not even a wk... but seems like a really long time in a sense... will update u guys when i'm back... in the mean while jus take care of urselves n enjoy the few new songs i put in my playlist... =)

canon in d by pachelbel...

2008-05-07T20:30:00.001+08:00

this video hit 42 000 000 hits ok!!! haha... unbelievable right? originally composed by jerry c fr taiwan... but i think this guy plays better than him... opps... sorry ah... haven't been writing much... head is full of the stuff i've studied... so jus enjoy this first... =)

i love this man...

2008-05-01T00:11:00.001+08:00

David cook singing Mariah Carey's Always be my Baby... he is so so so zai... love his eyes too... when u look into them, u will melt... haha... really want him to win american idol!!!

someone sing this song for me... haha...

2008-04-26T01:47:00.001+08:00

IM YOURS by Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family (2nd time: ah, la happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

experiment...

2008-04-23T09:16:00.001+08:00

Instructions: count the number of passes the white team makes.

After completing the experiment, click on my comments to find out what it is all about. =)

Kung Fu Guinea Pig

2008-04-22T01:14:00.001+08:00

not sure if u guys has seen this b4... but it's quite funny... haha...

resemblence?

2008-04-17T17:44:00.003+08:00

a taxi driver said i look a bit like felicia chin... do u think so? haha... i think only in this picture... haha...

emo song for emo me...

2008-04-14T23:49:00.002+08:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

my beloved presentation group...

2008-04-11T22:36:00.002+08:00

this is my beloved presentation group... really wanna thank them for the wonderful time! it's super funny with this guys around... fr left: -jingda- he is the contrast of the rest... he is cool n calm, he displays a more serious attitude with a tinge of humour... -kenneth- u look at him u'll think he's the quiet type but u r wrong!!! he is damn funny with loads of crap n he can imitate the canto n indian slang so well... wahaha... laugh till peng... -xianglong- he's a blur king, he actually left his lap top in the photocopying place in the library but luckily he got it back... he's another one with hidden talent: imitation of indian slang... haha... n look at the cool pose in the photo! haha... -melvin- the only beefy hunk in our group... =p look at those muscles!!! haha... n he is a gd actor!!! haha...

thank u guys for making our meetings really enjoyable... love u guys! muacks! wanna noe wat funny things we discussed? go check out melvin's blog! haha...

I LOST MY PHONE!!!

2008-04-09T23:25:00.002+08:00

ok i admit i was careless... i was having lesson in engine n went to toilet during break time... i brought my phone n i left it on the latch. i forgot abt it n went back to class... abt 5 mins later i noticed my phone is gone so i quickly rushed down n look for it but it wasn't there anymore... i was like OMG... jia lut liao la... i went back to class n borrowed jingda's phone to call mine... but it's switched off already... i knew tat's the end le... if the girl has the intention to return it to u she would neva switched it off...

haiz... y r pple so greedy? if it's me i would definitely return it... i swear... coz i've returned it once before... how can u not feel guilty when taking something tat's not urs... it's not just the phone itself... there r many things u lose, like pictures... photos capture the moment, once u lost it, u can't capture the same feeling anymore... it's gone forever... the things u hang on the phone, it may be a gift fr someone which means something to u... n opportunities... wat if someone called u for an interview n the person smsed u the address... but u lost ur phone, u may jus lose this chance...

so the person who takes the phone... u're not jus stealing the phone, u're stealing away other pple's precious memories, u're stealing away other pple's once in a life time opportunity... how can u live with tat... wouldn't u hope tat others will return u ur phone if u misplaced it? u noe how it feels to lose something impt? think abt it... u like it? no... then dun do it to others... if u dun care, then i can only say tat u're selfish n dun give a damn of wat other pple feels...

stress...

2008-04-07T12:38:00.002+08:00

ok... i have 2 tests n a presentation nxt wk... sianz... damn tired n need a gd break... shld i do the presentation?

this is the deal fr my prof... he said he is giving us a chance to earn some marks fr him if we give him a gd presentation... this is to help those who has not done particulary well for the test n term paper... so i'm not sure wat is considered borderline n is in need of the marks... ok i got 12.5/20 for the test n B for my paper... i think i'm average... so i asked shaun... he said he is doing be coz he cares enough to do it... so i was like ok shld do... but now i realised i have 2 tests nxt wk... i would be really shag to do the presentation... how? sigh...

extra strength viagra...

2008-04-05T00:49:00.002+08:00

Crazy Mike the Biker walks into a pharmacy and says to the pharmacist, "Listen, I have three girls coming over tonight. I've never had three girls at once, and I need something to keep me horny... keep me potent." The pharmacist reaches under the counter, unlocks the bottom drawer and takes out a small cardboard box marked with a label "Viagra Extra Strength" and says, "Here, if you eat this, you'll go NUTS for 12 hours!"

Then Crazy Mike says, "Gimme three boxes!" The next day, Crazy Mike walks into the same pharmacy, right up to the same pharmacist and pulls down his pants. The pharmacist looks in horror as he notices the man's penis is black and blue, and the skin is hanging off in some places.

Crazy Mike says, "Gimme a tube of heat rub."

The pharmacist replies, "Heat rub?!?!?! You're not going to put it on that are you?"

Crazy Mike says, "No, it's for my arms, the girls didn't show up."

effort, performance n results...

2008-04-02T15:31:00.002+08:00

well... all 3 do not correlate... at least in some sense... ok example: u may study real hard (effort), can do all the test qns (performance), but cui outcome (results). ok u can come up with all the possible permutations n ya, u can think of examples to fit in all those situations...

well... to explain for this poor correlation... u may be studying hard but not smart (more effort doesn't mean gd), being too over confident or too nervous during the test (affecting performance) n results will be dependent on the 2 factors (effort n performance) n of coz the person marking the paper... ha... now we noe tat results is something tat is out of our control in some sense... wat we muz do to improve our results is to deal with effort n performance... even so, there r pple who put in minimal effort, saying tat they can't do the qns n yet getting gd results... hmm... there seems to be some other factors affecting results... n wat i presume here... there is an element of luck tat plays a part n the person's own abilities (e.g. intelligence).

so in conclusion... some factors certainly is out of our control n it contributes to the results we r getting... oh well... wat can i do... =|

this song makes me cry...

2008-04-02T00:19:00.001+08:00

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

bored...

2008-04-01T13:24:00.002+08:00

happy april fool's day everyone! think i need to see fresh things... so got to change my layout every month... haha... been tired doing presentations... seems never ending... n the show 一房半厅一水缸 is making me pek cek... can't stand carol... she's lying to her sis n she's abandoning her family for money! wat the hell... cannot tahan... damn disgusting... dun like gals who r 爱慕虚荣. feel like slapping her... then xiuming so poor thing, like ding yi but can't express her love for him due to her haughty sis... everytime i see her i feel sad for her... i really can't wait for carol to expose herself, let everyone knows her hidden agenda n ding yi dumps her for xiuming... *waiting* wahahaha... i would be so happy to see both of them together... so sweet right???!!! =) overall really nice show... but i get very emotional when i see shows... i would feel angry, sad, happy, nervous, etc for the characters... n it really shows on my face... haha... gd n bad in a sense... if happy then gd la... but if i see injustice i would really feel angry n will make noise one... oops... haha... well u can say i'm very affected by the pple around me... so i always like to make pple feel happy... indirectly it'll make me happy as well... =)

look carefully at ur receipts...

2008-03-30T01:46:00.002+08:00

hey guys this is impt man... zhengguo n i almost kena cheated jus now... we went to breeks at taka to have dinner... i had pasta with mushroom which costs $9.50, n he had beef lasagna which costs $13.90... the waiter came with the bill i saw $37++... we din think much so we paid n left... aft tat i thought back n realised it's not right... it can't be so much... so i asked him if he still has the receipt but he said he left it there... watever it is we went back up n look at the menu again to confirm the prices of our dishes... then we went to this waiter n he remembered wat we ordered... we told him wat happened n he went to check for us... then this lady quickly came n returned us the money (they charged us $10 more) n left... she din even apologise... somehow i felt it was done on purpose... wonder how many pple were cheated... so it is really impt to check ur receipt before paying!

cool photo and caption...

2008-03-30T01:35:00.002+08:00

hey check this out... got it fr an exhibition in NUS... really creative i mus say... 2 thumbs up!

sucky yr 4...

2008-03-26T01:31:00.003+08:00

u noe everyday i'm so tired tat i can't blog... even though i have something to write abt i have no energy to type it out... i can't generate meaningful posts... all i can fork out are some useless stuff tat happen to me... really sian... see now i'm like trying to squeeze some pathetic juice out of this dry lemon... nothing comes out of my head... better sleep... zzz...

take a little trip around NTU...

2008-03-21T00:33:00.004+08:00

went to NTU today to meet desiree n liping for lunch... decided to go there coz i haven't been there before... haha... but come to think abt it i'll be going NIE so i have plenty of chances to go NTU... oh well... haha...

went to canteen A to have lunch... the place was quite crowded... the difference was tat the tables n chairs were not fixed like NUS's. we managed to find seats but another group of guys were eyeing it too... n they din give it to us... how ungentlemanly... haha... but nvm, we were cool... we ate jap food n i had teriyaki chicken don... another difference is tat they use disposible utensils!!! some more the plates n bowls r styrofoam... how environmentally unfriendly n waste of money... haha... heard fr desiree n liping tat it has been like this since yr 1... omg... wonder how much garbage they got to dispose everyday man... think in 1 yr, all the plates n bowls r enough to cover the entire NTU... haha... oh ya, said hi to kim as well... the rest of my friends either having lec or a home... so din get to say hi to them...

aft lunch desiree brought me around NTU... while liping went to meet her mentor... desiree showed me the diff libraries... structure wise is really quite diff fr NUS's... their structure is quite open in the sense tat u can see the level above n below u... but the similar thing is the photocopying system... the program exactly the same... haha...

another weird thing is tat we actually cut across the carpark to get to the other side of NTU... n the thing is tat it is possible to walk around NTU... desiree even told me it is faster to walk than to take the shuttle bus coz it takes damn long to come... haha... we walked fr the north spine to the south spine... apparently south spine is the arts side (if i dun remember wrongly)... n they have weird building names like S1.1, S1.2, etc... find it quite funny, how come got the . something one... haha... n their sch bookshop is popular! haha...

then went to lee kong chian lecture theatre... very nice right? haha... love the mural... haha... then went to canteen B it's much smaller... n i met my pri sch classmate! haha... so conincidental... haha...

on the final note... i want to comment tat NTU is really quiet!!! i dun see anyone walking around in sch!!! haha... desiree told me it's rather weird coz it's not this quiet on other days... haha... muz be tat fri is gd friday so pple took thurs off to have a long weekend... haha... well... it's cool... i shld go SMU soon man... haha...

"pleasant" surprise...

2008-03-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

she was studying in starbucks with her friend when she suddenly looked up n saw him sitting opp her abt 3 metres away, her heart skipped a beat... little did she expect to see him... but of coz he was with his gf... she went back to her books... but she couldn't concentrate... occassionally she would glance up to look at him but only to see him looking down on his phone... ha but fortunately she managed to catch his gaze, disappointed to see tat he din acknowledge her at all... she felt kinda pissed... how could he treat her like tat... is a smile too much to ask for? she unfortunately caught too many glances of wat she's not supposed to see... kissing, hugging, happily taking photos of each other... y did he have to do those things in front of her? like pretending tat she's transparent... she went back to her books trying to make the best out of the studying session... she left before them... walking out... she jus had to pretend she doesn't know him... heartless creature...

love and sex...

2008-03-13T21:45:00.002+08:00

love leads to sex? sex leads to love?

Simon's Cat 'Let Me In!'

2008-03-13T07:09:00.001+08:00

sorry guys, i have been busy with sch work so no time to blog... enjoy the videos in the mean time!

get married? have kids?

2008-03-12T23:21:00.003+08:00

"i dun think i'm gonna get married."
"why?"
"coz it's jus a piece of paper n it doesn't gurantee happiness."
"but it is a committment to the relationship."
"if 2 pple love each other they shld be committed to the relationship. to get committment out of married is jus not right."
"but it's the closest a woman can get. it's a sense of security. at least if anything bad happens, both parties r less likely to separate coz there is a legal bond between them."
"if both parties love each other, they can jus live together. marriage is not neccessary."
"so wat happens if one day they decide to separate. it won't be fair for the gal."
"so u think it will be fair for the guy? marriage is only neccessary if u wanna have kids."
"so u dun want to have kids?"
"no, i dun really like them n i dun think i will be a gd father. n i dun want to be tied down by kids. let's say if u wanna go on a holiday, u can't jus leave like tat, u have to think abt them n i dun want the restriction. u only leave once, n i want to do things i wanna do."
"..."

Rowan Atkinson - Invisible Drum Kit

2008-03-06T00:00:00.001+08:00

enjoy the all time favourite mr. bean! haha...

he...

2008-03-04T19:14:00.003+08:00

1. eat fruits everyday
2. dun dilly dally
3. exercise regularly
4. read newspaper

i dun change for anybody not even my mum... she used to ask me to eat fruits but i jus refused... i mean i was jus indifferent... i know fruits r gd but i was jus lazy to eat... n i always dilly dally, i like to do things slowly at my own sweet time which ends up me wasting lots of precious time... my dad always ask me to read newspaper which i also can't be bothered... only he managed to change me... which was wat i realised u can actually change for someone u love... but for now i'm only doing point 1. the rest i kinda slack off... it's hard to start again la... no motivation to change... haha...

someone told me: if u love someone u shld accept someone for who he is n not trying to change him... if u change him, he is not him anymore... somehow i feel if u're changing for the better then y not? i mean he muz have loved u alot n wants u to become a better person tats y he wants to u to make a change... well, i guess as long both parties agree on the change then it shld be no prob... but if one wants to stay the way he is then i guess the other party shld respect his decision n accept him for who he is...

do u resist change? do u insist change? well... it all depends how much u love each other... =)

gender stereotypes in life...

2008-02-22T00:12:00.003+08:00

got it fr my gender psyc textbook... really interesting... enjoy! =)

the imagery n metaphors used to describe fertilization in biological n medical textbooks extend n reinforce many gender stereotypes. a medical anthropologist noted tat female ova r often described as "passively awaiting" sperm. sperm r described as "purposefully moving" through the reproductive tract "actively seeking" their target, which they then "aggressively assault". sperm make a "perilous journey" to reach their prize. sperm r described as "making a decision" to penetrate the egg. ova r described as in danger of death if not rescued by a fertilising sperm. most of us carry the stereotypic image of a single sperm tat is somehow "stronger" or "fitter" than the others (darwinism strikes again!) n tat is therefore able to penetrate the surface of the egg. a more accurate image seems to be tat sperm cooperate so tat several spermatoza get closer to the surface of the egg. actually, the release of certain chemicals allow the ovum to actively pull a sperm onto n into itself. thus we see gender stereotypes applied even in descriptions of life on the cellular level, n the strength of those stereotypes distorts the accuracy of even scientific perception n description. (Martin, 1987)

being helpful...

2008-02-15T15:49:00.005+08:00

well i guess parents haven't been teaching their kids the correct things... being helpful is being scorned for "wasting time", "wasting effort", "being kay-poh", "being stupid", etc... how contradicting it is tat schools have civic n moral education to teach us to be helpful to peers n pple around u while parents at home r reminding us to be selfish n think for urself...

i'm not trying to say being selfish is wrong but it jus makes the world an ugly place to live in... being in a competitive society, parents have been trying their best to inculcate survival skills to their kids... telling them muz be the best, take watever's the best, be kiasu, watch out for urself, blah blah blah... helping someone is something u shld try not to do... because the person may become better than u (in terms if u help him/her in sch work), or "u already so busy still so kay-poh help ur friend", or "u're so obedient to ur friend but not to ur parents"...

so helping is something u dun really see nowadays... coz we're too preoccupied with ourselves... we always want the best for ourselves n tend to neglect those around us... ok... let's say help does exist... but it doesn't come alone... it is tied to some kind of expectaion of the other party (e.g. "if i help u, wat gd do i get?") they always say : "nothing comes for free" u want help... u'll be expected to pay for it...

ok let's side track a bit... i'm not gonna mention who... but someone told me : 正义值多少钱？ another friend said: how much is integrity worth? well... i can't believe all this can be equated to money... even basic moral principles r worth nothing compared to money... i noe money is impt but they r not everything... but many pple have been succumbing to the temptation of fame n glory in the exchange of their moral principles... is it worth it? r we so pathetic? humans r supposed to be the most superior among all species... but yet we r displaying behaviour of the most primitive creatures...

so wat have ur parents taught u? wat have u learn fr the environment n experiences? everyone is guilty of making mistakes... let's make the world a better place... =)

another valentine's day...

2008-02-15T01:14:00.003+08:00

another yr celebrating v day without a bf... so sian... then of coz celebrating another birthday without a bf... let's hope christmas will be different for me... sick of monotonous life... zzz...

心痛

2008-02-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

望著你突然一阵心痛
一次又一次任那感情放纵
你的脆弱让我走不开
你的依赖所以我存在
想著你还是想到心痛
期待我做的将来你都会懂
有一天真如我有一天
但愿我还在你记忆中

遗憾...

2008-02-11T11:30:00.000+08:00

first day of cny held feelings of joy n sadness... joy is of coz the obvious... cny is supposed to an occasion filled with gd food, gd money, new clothes, familiar faces... sadness is due to well... it was the day tat i knew him... but last yr... i mean it's not tat i could not get over him... but the date is jus too significant... tell me... who can't remember 大年初一...

well... i went to my aunt's place... the day jus pass by... we ate the super nice vegetarian dish (the same one every yr), lou hei, played with my nieces, eat new yr goodies, watch a bit of tv, then the adults played balck jack n mahjong... this is when my cousin, an older neice n i got bored... well every yr is the same... haha.. so we end up going to cine to watch ah long pte ltd... the show was quite funny, but not worth $10 though... n it's kinda disgusting tat the movie prices increase again... even though i always say "well increasing in price means the economy is improving n the standard of living is getting higher" (ok u all will say wat bullshit is this... =p)

then we went back to my aunt's place... to pick up the old folks aft their mahjong session... then went home... how boring can... so i decided to club... haha... really wanted to go dragonfly... to relive my memory... but my friend alwin says his friends at MOS... so no choice lor... i actually saw william scorpion at commenwealth station!!! damn cool la... chatted with him... n he's heading down to dragonfly to sing... well... too bad for me i din go down...

hmm... i guess somethings stays in us n we can't possibly forget... we may hid it well somewhere n lock it in the forgotten realms deep inside our supposedly endless mind... but it often lurks out n surface right before ur eyes... the more u surpress, the more it surfaces... sometimes maybe it is better for u to leave it to wonder around... sometimes it losts its way, sometimes it runs past u, sometimes it stays for a while... alright... happy cny to u...

random pictures...

2008-02-01T22:51:00.001+08:00

absolut kurant...

2008-01-25T01:20:00.000+08:00

it tastes gd with sprite... haha... waiting for the alcohol effect to kick in b4 going to bed... had a terrible quarrel with my mum again... sux... i was like so motivated to do my stuff n all... got things planned out... but she always spoil my mood... she jus have to make me cry n i hate it... everything i do is wrong n wat she say n does is right... sigh... my pt neva gets across to her... noone supports me... i'm practically n my own... sianz...

new sem resolution...

2008-01-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

ok... i noe it's a bit late but ya... better be late than neva... gonna sign a pact with ken... ok so here it is... will add in the amended version (if there is any)... wat's the goal of the pact? it's to enter the dean's list... haha... last chance for me already... =/

1. Wake up latest at 9am from Monday to Friday.
2. Sleep latest at 1am from Monday to Thursday and Sunday.
3. Only 1 hour of lunch each day is allowed in school.
4. Earliest time of leaving school is 6pm unless going to the gym.
5. All free time must be put to studying when in school.
6. Only 1 hr of going on the internet is allowed each day.
7. Only allowed to go out (i.e. watch movie, shopping, etc) on Friday nights, Saturdays and Sundays.

Note: - All rules are applicable on weekdays unless stated otherwise.
- Violation of any rules without valid reasons will result in a penalty of $2, of which will be given to the other party to keep until the end of the semester. It is entirely the other party’s discretion on how he/she wants to deal with the money.

Melee - Built To Last

2008-01-15T22:40:00.001+08:00

it's a really really nice song!!! enjoy ya... =)

my birthday...

2008-01-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

ok... it's exactly one month away... excited but at the same time sad... gonna be old... sianz...

catchy rhyme...

2008-01-12T12:49:00.000+08:00

ok i got this fr jason... it's super catchy... u say it once it's in ur head... haha...

女人不醉男人没机会

男人不醉女人没小费

男女不醉酒店没人睡

ok then kim told me there's another line...

男女都醉请问你哪位

franck muller...

2008-01-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

ok... i hope i can own one... one day...

fashion doctor...

2008-01-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

I’m sure all of us have realized tat female clothing is more widely available than guys’. Well I guess I can safely say more than 80% of all shops in spore sell girls’ stuff (be it clothes, shoes, accessories, blah blah blah)… tat leaves the pathetic 20% (or maybe less than tat) to our counterparts… which is quite sad… but no worries… dr. syn is on a mission to rescue those guys with wardrobe malfunction!!! Hahaha…

Ok… very importantly I’ve pointed out the fact of the scarcity of our beloved guys’ stuff… so we muz all try our best to help them… *grinz* so here’s the truth, there r only a few kinds of guys’ clothing: singlet, t-shirt, polo tee, short sleeve shirt, long sleeve shirt, shorts, berms, jeans, pants… (guys let me noe if there r stuff tat I missed out)… but basically these r the common ones tat we see on the street, including our daddies, brothers, BFs, blah blah blah… limited shops selling limited range of clothes (ok… they r jus playing with colours n design, a blue t-shirt n a red t-shirt r essentially the same)… so it’s really a headache for guys to buy clothes… n I really pity them… n I pity even more on those guys who anyhow chooses their clothes… I mean there r already limited choices, so it only makes sense to make the best out of it right? (come on, pls agree with me)

Let’s talk abt the common mistakes guys make when buying clothes. 1. grab n buy without trying. some guys might say “try for wat, I always wear M size” or “aiya so troublesome jus look in the mirror can le” aha… this is seriously wrong… u wear M size for Giordano doesn’t mean u wear M size for NUM. n even within the same brand, diff clothes have diff cutting, length… so it is very important to try it first before buying… u muz make sure tat it fits u… I repeat again: fits u… there mustn’t be any extra cloth hanging around… u dun want to look sloppy do u? check the shoulder area, sleeve (whether it’s too tight or not)… ok jus make sure it’s jus nice for u… (eh… too tight also not nice k… key word is fit) n ya u may think tat the shirt looks nice but when u wear it u might think otherwise… so dun be lazy! Pls queue patiently n wait for ur turn to try it on… =)

Ok nxt prob… 2. getting the wrong length (i.e “oh where’s my feet, I can’t see them” or “hey my torso feels so cold”) ok… the latter is much lesser than the former… I realise some guys like to buy clothes tat r too long… ok especially for guys who r not very tall… if u wear a long top, it would cover too much of ur body, making ur legs look short… so take note of tat… if u really want to wear it jus tuck it in… (hey it’s not tat nerdy, u can look real gd if u have a belt with a nice bucker =)) some of u might ask “wat if it fits me but the length is not right?” my ans would be dun buy it… it’s money u’re spending so make sure u spend it well… =)

3. “hey I couldn’t seem to find clothes tat fit me” ok here’s the catch: there’s nothing wrong with the clothes, u got to do something abt urself. Hey hey hey… I’m not trying to be nasty or anything… look at it this way… if u’re skinny or flabby, go train some weights, build up a little, get some muscles… if u’re getting fat, go exercise, do some cardio, lose some weight, shed some pounds… I mean ultimately it’s not abt finding the right kind of clothes… it’s abt looking gd n feeling gd… if u look gd in wat u wear, u’ll naturally feel gd… n this greatly enhances ur self confidence n esteem… which in turn affects ur daily routines like work life n social life… I’m sure some of u have experienced a bad hair day before n it affected ur day (coz ur self esteem is lowered)… so dun take it for granted tat wearing certain kinds of clothes can hide ur flaws (e.g. black makes u look thinner)… make a new yr resolution to keep fit n in shape… but dun overdo it too… heez…

Final note: happy shopping n exercising!

p/s: I will talk abt bottoms in the nxt episode of fashion doctor!

OVERBOARD

2008-01-04T17:59:00.000+08:00

ok i woke up this morn realised my mum opened my letter without my permission... i was quite upset n asked her how could she do tat... then she said "y can't i? it's not as though u've got anything to hide." then i told her it's not abt hiding anything, it's abt basic courtesy...

then last night i told her i'll be going out with my sec sch classmates for dinner today... she asked "u sure u going out with them n not someone else?" i was feeling a little irritated so i told her "ok if u dun believe i can call my friend up n u can ask her" she said no coz she might be sleeping... so i let the matter rest... then jus now she asked again "so how many pple is going for the gathering later?" i said"i dunnoe, din ask." she said "how can u not noe, u so kaypo one u neva ask? u sure u going out with them?" then i told her "ok i call my friend, u talk to her". so i had to call liping (my sec sch classmate)... so my mum was like paiseh la... so she say something like "no la, jus joking only din noe she'll call" i was like WTF... i already told u i going out with them already then u dun believe me... i'm feeling super pissed of... tell me how can i not to... pls raise up ur hands if any of ur mums r like this... ok i hope there r no hands... dun want other pple to suffer like me...

Il Divo - Regresa Mi

2008-01-03T16:31:00.001+08:00

the voice, the looks... wat else r u looking for?

freedom?

2008-01-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

i love this word but i dun experience the true essence of it... i'm 22... n they say at 21 u'll receive the key to freedom but i dun have it n i doubt i'll have it until i get married... =(

my parents r so controlling over my life... i'm not even asking for independence... i'm jus asking for autonomy... but i dun have it... i'm really tired sometimes trying to fight for my own rights... then i end up making them upset... i seriously dun noe wat i have done wrong... i tell my mum who i'm going out with all the time... she muz noe... i din disagree with tat... she likes to ask me who sms me... which i feel is a bit intruding my privacy sometimes so i told her to give me some privacy but she's like "wat u're hiding fr me tat u can't tell me?" then both of us will end up being upset...

ok i got to continue this post in the morn coz my dad was angry at me using the com... i was like go out u dun like, talk on the phone also cannot then i keep quiet type my blog also cannot... wah lau... ma chiam i committing a crime like tat... everything also cannot do... no freedom of rights man...

my mum is worse i tell u... everything also muz control... she even controls my private life, i.e. my relationship... damn sian... it's like her getting married not me... n she's an elitist la... cannot take it... her expectation is like so high la... n all she cares is whether she likes or not n not whether i like or not... so i told her b4 "u go find a guy u like la then u matchmake to me." then she really go do tat lor but turn out can't coz tat guy got religion prob (he's a christian but i'm not). can u believe it? then if i like someone she doesn't like she'll threaten me like "if u get together with him we'll severe ties" she's like forcing me to choose between him or her... i was like how can she be so childish to say this kind of things... she's like putting a gun at my head forcing me to make a damn decision... she's smart she noes i'll choose her... ok i haf no freedom of choice... i'm ruled under her...

i tried threatening her b4... but like no use... i told her "if one day i commit suicide it would be becoz of u" she jus diam but she still continues to control me... then i tell myself if one day when i really cannot take it anymore but she continues to nag i'm going to take a knife n place it at my wrist... if it still doesn't work then maybe i really got to slash it... but i dun dare leh... i scared of pain... anyways recently my tolerance level of her is getting lower... i really can't take the fact tat i'm living in her bloody shadows...

some of u might advice me to talk nicely to her.. trust me i tried but she jus doesn't seem to take my point of view... she always said i'm talking back to her... then i told her "i'm not talking back at u, i'm jus trying to state my point of view. if i always agree with wat u said then u shld be worried coz i dun have my own state of mind." she jus feels tat she's right all the time n she loves to interfere with my affairs especially my love life... she likes to call my bf (past) n talk to him when we (my bf n i) r facing problems. then i would tell her dun meddle with it coz we can handle it ourselves. but she jus dun listen she calls him secretly behind my back then my bf came to tell me abt it... i feel so paiseh n i have to apologise to him on behalf of my mum... sometimes i feel she's making things worse for me... i told her again n again but she still wants to do things her way... then she always wants to meet him but he doesn't want coz he feels stressed... i seriously can understand him coz if it's me i'll feel stress too... my mum really screws me up... the worse thing is my mum jus confessed tat she still calls him to wish him happy new yr the other day... i was damn fed up... i took out her phone book n tear out the pg. which contains his number... WTF! i mean it's already over then jus leave him alone la... n the thing is she always ask me to contact my EXes... it is damn irritating i tell u... she will like "got sms him wish him happy birthday/merry christmas/happy new yr/ask him how's life" then i will be like "y u keep pressing me. if i want to msg i will, no need u to tell me." she keeps wanting me to get back to my EXes... which i hate... i mean this kind of thing u can't force... instead of helping me get over, she dwells on them, making my life difficult... she'll say things like "u din try hard enough to get him back" or "u give up too easily". she's like blaming me for wat happened la... i'm sure u guys noe it takes 2 hands to clap...

haiz... i'm really damn depressed sometimes... not tat i want to complain abt my mum... i noe she cares but she's really overdoing it n in the wrong way... i feel really tired... n i really dun like to stay at home... she's getting on my nerves... i'm really gonna die early in this kind of unhappy environment...

damn results...

2007-12-28T11:30:00.000+08:00

ok i'm in sch... jus printed out the form for reviewing results... gonna submit it... n have to pay $10 somemore... WTH... i seriously cannot believe it... i got A for my presentation n yet i can get a C+ for my final grade... WTH... i noe i've been complaining to many pple... but ya i jus can't accept it... it's not as though i can't do my final paper... n i was super confident of getting at least an A-... damn it... then review the results means recounting the marks. u can't see ur script unless u fail... so u pay them $10 jus to recount ur marks... how ridiculous... well it's not the money issue... i'm jus damn affected by my results... first time my cap score dropped... damn sian...

love?

2007-12-27T22:44:00.000+08:00

sometimes when a friend who has been in a relationship for a few yrs came to tell me tat he/she keeps quarelling with the other half... then i would ask them: "then y both of u r still together?" i would hear answers like: "we've been together for so long it would be wasted to break up..." or "i can't imagine myself starting all over again knowing a person right fr the start..." or "i'm so used to having him/her around, so jus be together lor..." but i have neva hear the reason tat they r still together becoz they love each other...

so they r jus being together for the sake of being together? then wat's the point? i mean wat's the point of being together with someone if u dun really love him/her anymore? wouldn't it be wasting each other's time n hurting each other deeper?

getting into a relationship is more than jus liking or loving tat someone... it's abt compatibility, communication, trust, respect, commitment, responsibility, time, effort, etc... before getting into a relationship, it is important to think of other factors (some pple say i think too much)... well we got to be rational... getting into a relationship without thinking may end up hurting each other which is wat all of us dread... who doesn't want a relationship to last... unless u r jus playing around n dun want to settle down yet... if u r the latter... then irrationality will be gd becoz it entails tat both of u will have a great time together n both of u will be happy, at least during the period when both of u r together... but if u r looking for something serious... then i suggest u be rational...

to pple out there who r attached: ask urself if u still love ur partner? if yes, then tat's gd... continue to put in effort to keep the flame going... if not... u got to consider whether u want to breakup or put in effort to rekindle the flame... dun be together for the sake of being together... it's not fair for the other party... if u dun think for urself at least think of him/her... it is selfish to hold on to something u dun love...

to pple who r single: pls consider carefully before getting into a relationship... it's not a child's play... others always say open ur eyes big when choosing the other half but i would say think carefully before going into a realtionship... it not only involves u... it involves the other person as well... dun hurt them...

busy busy busy...

2007-12-26T09:20:00.000+08:00

sorry no posts recently, have been out these few days... but i promised there'll be one soon! haha... wish me luck for my results later... =s

wish list...

2007-12-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

1. battery operated toothbrush (ken got me tat n a cap as well... =D)
2. red n black polo tee (leftie is taking care of tat)
3. hey i can't think of wat else i want...
4. more money (guess noone can fulfill tat)
5. bf (hmm... this is hard as well)
6. jadore perfume
7. heels
8. bag (aren't no. 7 n 8 too vague? i'm jus trying to fill up the list to make it look gd =p)
9. more time
10. salmon sashimi (can get me some jap restaurent vouchers. haha...)
11. more no.10 pls... =p
12. a nice date or dinner or party on christmas eve... (all 3 also can... haha)
13. more gifts
14. clothes (another vague one)
15. ok... i can't think anymore... will continue another time...
16. i thought of somemore!
17. kose seikisho perfect cleansing oil
18. biotherm white detox bio-A[2] anti "dark area" whitening eye essence (no. 17 n 18 r more of need items than wish items, will need to get them sooner or later. haha...)
19. m.a.c technakohl liner (the current one i have sux)
20. i think this shld be it... wahahaha...

eve of public hol...

2007-12-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

ok... i failed my final theory evaluation... coz i neva study... sianz... shall do it again nxt wed... i muz study man... haha... went to meet kenneth in taka... n i received my first christmas present!!! haha... so happy... shall tell u wat he got for me later...

we had salmon sashimi fr cold storage... it's damn gd can!!! told ken we muz eat this everytime we go out... haha... it's really freaking heavenly!!!!!!!!! my gosh... then went to get concealer... want to use the $30 voucher given by singtel when i signed up for broadband... went to bobbi brown... then they tell me muz use diff concealer for dark eye circles n blemishes... i was like "wat?" so troublesome... can't they haf like an all in one thingy... haha... so in the end bought it fr shu uemura instead...

then went to village to eat... then we took some funny pictures... haha... ok tat's ravel n ken in the first pic... so cute right the cow... haha... then in the 2nd pic is ken n me... then lastly zhi xiong n ravel...

took a pic of the decorations, i quite artistic right? haha... we had waffle ice cream for dessert... was feeling bored so "drew" a smiley face using wat's left over the plate... haha...

after tat went to watch national treasure... the show ok la... jus exciting only... heez... supposed to meet another friend for movie, but my mum not feeling well so have to head home... also many pple ask me go clubbing lor... i think i quite guai... able to resist my temptation... haha... ok got to go bathe! got work tmr! haha...

back post for 15th dec...

2007-12-18T00:29:00.000+08:00

we have broken up longer than we were together... time really flies... haiz...

n jonathan is finally back!!! so happy... finally got to see him aft 10 months... haha...

also it's 2 months to my birthday... haha... haiz... turning 1 yr older...

the big "D"...

2007-12-13T23:32:00.002+08:00

disappointment...

for the birds...

2007-12-13T23:32:00.001+08:00

MCR concert!

2007-12-12T23:39:00.000+08:00

ok... so here's wat happened at the concert... daniel was late can... u noe y? coz he fell asleep!!! can u imagine???!!! haha... oh well... we went in... got the queue jumpers so no need to queue!!! haha... the queue was like super long can... ok... thank u 98.7fm for giving out the queue jumpers! =)

so we went in max pavillion... as u noe... standing tics r first come first serve... so natually we were not in front... =/ oh well... was standing n waiting for the band to appear... aft a while i turned back i see many rows of pple behind us... wah... was quite shocked... so not so bad aft all... we're not too far back fr the stage... haha... then something funny happened... look at the pic...

some guys actually blew the condoms n toss them in the air... the record was 4 in the air... but the life span was short... pple burst them one by one... poor condoms... they din reach their fullest potential... they could have been put to better use to serve a better cause... =p

ok... so finally the band came on stage... the crowd was crazy... screaming n shouting n jumping... i wasn't tat crazy... haha... they sang the first song "this is how i disappear" (if i din remember wrongly) haha... then i experienced something phenomenal... there was this huge wave of pple falling but we din fall coz it's too pack... but the force was definitely significant... haha...

dan took some pics but he din send me all... this is the best one i have... ok the lead singer is small... haha...

they sang most songs fr the black parade album... but they also did a few fr the previous one... when they sang helena... the whole crowd went mad... there's this 2 pple in front of me swaying n jerking... scary man... haha... got to keep like one arm's length fr them... haha...

the last song they sang was famous last words... wah... damn high sia... i was also jumping n singing... haha... did tat for a few songs... like "welcome to the black parade" n "i dun love u"... overall the concert was not too bad... had my fun jumping n screaming like a crazy fellow... hahaha... but was a little disappointed... they din sing "disenchanted"... =/ it's a super nice n emo song...

was quite surprised tat i saw some mothers bringing their kids to the concert... it's kinda weird coz there were F words here n there so hmm... i din noe mothers r so hip nowadays... i'm gonna be a hip mum in the future too!!! haha... ok... tat's abt it... till the nxt time... fl out... =p

the black parade...

2007-12-11T13:00:00.000+08:00

here i come... =) *roars*

My Chemical Romance-The Black Parade

2007-12-11T12:57:00.001+08:00

big red apple...

2007-12-11T02:09:00.001+08:00

haha... look at this apple... super huge right? haha... it's so cute n pretty, jus like me! at least tat was wat i was told... lol...

love screws pple up...

2007-12-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

it does... but pple still get into a relationship... haha... y? do pple weigh the benefits over risks? or they jus step into it as long as they feel right? well... i guessed the ans is mixed with a slight tilt to the latter... i really dun noe man... love is such a complicated thing n there's no ans to it... pple work hard n put in lotsa effort to seek for an ans... but they fail... becoz there is no specific ans...

i feel screwed... all the time... haiz...

phrasing of ur sentences...

2007-12-07T16:39:00.000+08:00

was talking to leftie last night... then i realised how u phrase ur sentence actually has a different effect on pple... for example, look at these 2 sentences:

"dun come if u're busy "

"come if u're free"

ok these 2 sentences virtually means the same thing but there is a subtle difference... for the first sentence it makes the reader feel obliged to come... it instill a sense of guilt in the person making the person feel bad if he doesn't come. but as for the 2nd sentence, it sounds more positive... if gives the person a choice whether he wants to come or not... interesting right? well, we dun usually realise tat... but most of the time we tend to phrase our sentence in the first way... we'll say something like: "if u're busy then dun come lor" rather than "if u're free jus come k" coz we subconsciously want to instill the sense of guilt in the person so the person will eventually come... haha... i think sometimes i'm guilty of it... oops... haha...

exam's over!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

finally it's over!!! wahahaha... this sem haven't been feeling real great so when exam's over i'm super happy... haha...

went to watch enchanted with ke ching... the show is very funny... the actress damn chio... haha... it was a sweet show overall... so fairy tale... so so so sweet.... sighz...

tried 2 dresses... the black one was fr zara, the white one was fr additions by celia loe... but quite ex lor... the black one costs $129 n the white one costs $149. but seriously spaeking i was attracted by the white one when i first saw it... haha.. hmm... will kiv... will go look at more dresses... will add one to my collection every christmas... heez... gonna go bathe, put eye mask, talk to leftie then sleep... haha... will have an intelligent post tmr!!!

eve of freedom...

2007-12-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

jus came back fr holland v... had xo fish beehoon, hor fun with ken... the bee hoon is so gd can!!! wah.. damn heavenly la... *slurps* it's been long since i had tat... the last time was during O week... went with the O com... hehe... then i saw SMU's (i think) hey gorgeous's participants. jin rui (the guy) is much better looking in person... but i din see jia hui (i think) properly... but her side view not bad... haha...

din go dance lesson today... coz pearlyn not going then i go alone like so sianz... so i jus wasted like $12 lor... haiz... i think it's time for me to put in some thought provoking posts n not jus a list of things i do each day... haha... will do it aft my exam when i have more time to think... heh... jia you to me... last paper tmr! =)

worst paper...

2007-12-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

damn it... it's open book but yet i feel the most unprepared n turns out to be the worst one i've had for yrs... there r too many things to write n i couldn't finish writing... dun think i've written enough to substantiate my stand... another bad thing is i do not noe my grades for presentation... therefore i have no idea how i've been doing for this module at all... but i dun think i did well... jus hope can get a B. but i scared i'll fail lor... sighz... =(

then went to clementi sumo house to eat lunch with val, celine n ju teng... went to the toilet... wah lau... super dirty lor... then on the door still put the sign "pls keep the toilet clean" wat bullshit lor... damn disgusting... din finish my rice... went home aft tat.... took some pics using my phone... heh... kinda fun... got a bit over board... keep taking... haha... can go check out my friendster... really dun feel like studying today... damn shag... gonna sleep aft i bathe... tmr really gonna pia like crazy... but i still got dance... sianz... =/

i'm a blur sotong...

2007-12-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

i din noe tmr's exam is open book until celine told me lor... sianz... lucky man... haha... if not i will be stressed like mad... haha... then in the evening was doing my broadband connection... so many prob lor... but lucky now working le... haha... so happy... no more 56K modem... lol...

damn it... he actually saw my clue... haha... he said his IQ is 131... mine only 126 can... haha... nvm... okie... gonna bathe then study... gd luck to me for tmr! haha...

someone...

2007-12-03T01:04:00.000+08:00

Alright, someone is bugging my head now... Look carefully, u may noe who it is... Who do u think he is? I'm not telling u now... Not yet...

maserati granturismo...

2007-12-01T23:10:00.001+08:00

ok here's a nice car... saw it in the papers jus now... long time neva see a car tat made me stopped to stare at it for a while... haha... it costs $428000... cheaper than a lamborghini... but still dun think can afford it in my life... haha... other cars tat made me high: 350z n of coz my lamborghini... =p

happening friday...

2007-12-01T14:07:00.000+08:00

hahaha... finished my paper at 430pm... weird timing... coz the exam start at 230pm instead of 1pm... heez... went to taka to submit my time sheet... then walked to ps... on the way passed by centre point... esther(fr the sk2 counter) saw me n asked me to go find her... saw this little kid... she's super cute n pretty la... she's like the cutest girl i've seen in a while... haha... she's only 8 months old... wah... super cute wish my kid will be so cute too in the future... =p i better go hunt for gd genes in my the other half.. haha... chatted with esther for a while waited quite long coz got a few customers at the counter... heez... then walked to ps... went up to golden village to get tics for tattoist... but the queue is super long la... so i went to the axs station... there only have 3 pple... then i wonder y pple want to queue at the box office... so weird...

then was thinking of wat to eat for dinner... alwin could not make it in time so i had to eat alone... actually supposed to meet leftie one... but she have yoga... haha... finally went to crystal jade kitchen... ordered pig liver porriage... the liver is super gd la!!! best i've eaten so far... it's smooth... not overly cooked... soft... wah!!! heaven sia... then met alwin for movie...

tattooist was not too bad... the main character has the looks, the body, nice tattoo on his back, n has 2 horns tat peeked out at the back of the neck when he wears t shirt... *slurps* damn cool stuff...

then met leftie n friends (zhi hua n his gf, edwin, gi n randall) at kandi bar... had my weekly dosage of alcohol... then we took a pic!!! leftie said very lesbianish... but i think it's ok leh... haha... n i think i look very red... wahahaha... left at abt 215am... had a great time chilling out... waiting for nxt wk!!! heez...

falling tears...

2007-11-29T18:59:00.000+08:00

saw the news regarding the funeral of the 5 rowers... saw how the dad was trying to speak in front of the crowd n holding back his tears... also the captain of the team... it was really a sad moment... i almost teared... life is so uncertain... u'll neva noe wat happens tmr... so always treasure wat u haf n give the person u love the best u can each day... we always take things for granted... dun wait till tmr... do it today... damn i miss him...

the big "D"...

2007-11-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

ok it's DEPRESSION!!! =( this morning woke up not feeling gd... i think it's because my lap top's cd rom drive not working!!! sigh... can't save the songs of the new jay chou album into my lappie... =( then went to sch to study for psyc assessment paper on fri... how coincidental... i was studying abt panic disorder, generalised anxiety disorder n DEPRESSION!!! hahaha... had a late lunch coz ken finished his paper at 3pm... then i could not have dinner at 6pm coz too full... so had subway cookie... reached suntec early then walked pass kenny rogers so went in to get cheese macaroni... damn nice!!! dance was funny today... laughed till i flushed through out the whole lesson... patrick was busy so got his student to teach... his name is "morning"??? i dunnoe man... haha... he taught us basic moves n a simple routine... then he always forget his moves.. damn funny... haha... then i came home switched on my lappie... found tat my cd rom drive is working!!! was so happy... put in my jay chou's cd... copied 2 songs then the drive not working again... sianz... haiz... okie... gonna bathe n sleep!!!

current fav...

2007-11-27T18:51:00.000+08:00

No one by Alicia Keys

"I just want you close

Where you can stay forever

You can be sure

That it will only get better

You and me together

Through the days and nights

I don't worry 'cause

Everything's going to be alright

People keep talking they can say what they like

But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one, no one, no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down

And my heart is hurting

You will always be around

This I know for certain

You and me together

Through the days and nights

I don't worry 'cause

Everything's going to be alright

People keep talking they can say what they like

But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one, no one, no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you

Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world

To find something like what we have

I know people will try try to divide something so real

So till the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one, no one, no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you

Can get in the way of what I feel for you"

wedding bells...

2007-11-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

so cute right? hehe... last time when i go for wedding the souveniour is usually a piece of fruit cake... then it evolved into chocolates... then key chains... then now these cute bears!!! so cool!!! my dad went for a wedding dinner on fri n he brought this back... heez... fr marina mandrin...

wonder nxt time when i get married wat souveniour i'll give away... hahaha... but tat will be long to go... haha... but hopefully not too far away la... haha... need to find bf first... =p to everyone who's attached: may happiness awaits every single moment of ur lives... hold on to each other's hands no matter wat happens... forgive n forget... trust n honesty... mutual respect... take a step back try not to quarrel... appreciate each other... neva give up! =)

distraught...

2007-11-25T21:58:00.000+08:00

my gosh... when i heard the news tat the national rowing team had an accident in cambodia my heart sank... coz one of my gd friends is in the team!!! so i smsed him immediately n was so relieved tat he's safe... he din go... but he told me he knew three of them personally... so i can imagine how sad he would be... i feel sad too especially when one of them was a PE teacher in NJC. even though i din see him before but the fact tat he was a teacher in my sch made me feel more sad...

haiz... the 5 of them were so young... one of them is only 20 years old... n they jus left the world lydat... without any last words... i can't imagine how his parents and loved ones would feel... my gosh... i dun think i would be strong enough to handle it... now i'm feeling a bit emo... haiz... it's so hard to deal with a 'lost'. something or someone can mean the so much to one person... when it's gone... u jus haf to let go... it's no pt hanging on to it... coz u noe it will neva come back again... so pls be strong and move on... coz life is still worth living for...

list of things i did yest...

2007-11-25T17:12:00.000+08:00

1. trading in my phone to get a new one... so got to delete all the stuff i stored inside... opened my inbox, there were 700+ messages... browse through... saw his messages... read all of it dated back to the very first one he sent me on 19 feb... he said he kena road block, close shave... took a deep breath... deleted all of it...

2. took a cab (spent too much time reading the messages) to pgp to take my exam. first time having exam there... first paper also... double first... hope will bring luck... haha... paper was ok... open book...

3. went down to taka's singtel fair enthusiastically wanting to get my phone... wanted to get sony ericsson's k770i. it was super crowed and hot coz it was located at civic plaza (outside taka). the person said will need to wait a few hrs till it's ur turn. i was like "wat???!!!" i decided to get another phone fr the hello shop at basement 2 (no promo of k770i there) it's too long a wait n besides it's really hot. cannot tahan...

4. went down... wah also so many pple... sianz... was looking around thinking of wat phone to get then this motorola promoter came n show me the model km3. it is quite nice... black in colour. he even took out his key to scracth the cover, no scratches n he even open up the phone (it's a flip phone) n place face down on the table n pressed the middle portion. wah... zai the phone still ok. so decided to get it. queue for a while (can't remember how long) took a queue number. the person told me to come back an hr later so i went to eat my lunch. super hungry it was abt 545pm.

5. daniel came down n he reccommended me this salmon sushi thingy... ate it then yann (my niece) came. she gave me a pouch she bought fr thailand. nice! heez... went down to wait a while more then finally got my phone.

6. the 3 of us went to newton circus for dinner with tjie siew n friends. was late for abt 1 hr... all my fault coz i din noe i have to wait so long for my phone... sighz... had ba chor mee...

7. went to siew's house she lives near newton, elizabeth heights. her house super nice... got pool table lor... so cool... took a quick shower in her house... she thought me how to draw eye line. cool stuff... called jing xian jie jie (my cousin) asked if she wanna go anywhere but she happened to be sleeping... decided to check out attica...

8. walked to paragon to get a drink at coffee bean first... siew met her korean classmates... had a chat... waited very long for cab... siew called the cab...

9. reached attica... they played really really gd r&b music... i'm serious better than anywhere else... but the crowd there is not my cup of tea... too many ang mohs... sighz... wanted to go home early but end up clubbing... bad gal... deserve a slap...

10. sleep... sat is over...

"fever, when u kiss me, fever when u hold me tight..."

2007-11-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

ok... i mean exam fever... haha... ok tmr is my first paper n it's at 1pm... will end at 3pm... aft tat i'm gonna get a new phone!!! finally!!! 21 months upgrade!!! haha... but i dunnoe wat phone to get leh... recently no phones i like... hmm...

i saw victor jus now (now in the library with him n his friends) i din receognise him can!!! he called me once i turned back din see anyone i noe so thought i heard wrongly... so i continued walking.. he called again then i realised is him lor... he become fatter... which is gd... coz he used to be quite skinny... haha...

n i finally finished my 2000 word essay... exceeded by 3oo+ words lor... haha... i din noe i can write so much... haha... now trying to study for my exam tmr... haiz... i feel like a zombie... haha... zhimin said i have bad dark eye circles... =( damn... looking ugly liao... =( better get back to my notes... wish me luck for tmr!!! hehe...