Tuesday, July 15, 2008

one yr...

it's been a yr already... hope u r doing well n all is fine...

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

commencement 2008...

ok... i'm gonna collect my degree scroll later... kinda excited but at the same time nervous n sad... mixed feelings la... 4 yrs seem to fly past like this... but the timing a bit off... 8pm leh... how to take photo? how to throw hat? i probably can't find it aft tat... haha... well... i'll see how it goes later... pray everything ends on time so i can party at zouk! yesh!!!

Thursday, July 3, 2008

i need to shop...

retail therapy tmr...

FL out...

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

i need to cry...

i need to get it out, i'm so holding it back, i need to cry, i'm so tired, i'm so sick, i dun care anymore, call me irrational, call me crazy, jus let me be...

*trying to look ok n behave rationally*

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

screwed...

i feel so bloody screwed up with my life... like i keep doing the wrong things, saying the wrong things, then ending up making everyone unhappy... haiz... i really wish life can be less complicated, n i can be more independent, no need to depend on anyone, no need for a shoulder to lean on, jus me handling my own life n not affecting others around me...

u can't hold on to intangible stuff... so y be so stubborn? jus let it be... when u try to sort things out n put in some effort, things may go haywire... i get very affected when i sense things amiss... sometimes i feel i'm a little too oversensitive... n i'm very afraid to mend things tat went wrong coz i'm afraid i would make it worse, but i'm scared tat if i leave everything as it is things will neva improve... i'm always in a dilemma...

sometimes i feel i'm a failure in certain aspects of my life... tears always fall n i have to catch them myself... when u thought u found someone there but it's actually ur imagination, or maybe the someone is really there but he only stayed for a while; or someone is there, but u did not acknowledge; or maybe u have 2 people, but u jus dun noe who to choose, u hesitated a while, n both r gone...

u look, u seek, u think, u like, u love, u fall, u cry, u dream, u wish, u hope, u pray, u fight, u tried, u lost...