Aft a long break...

Ok I know I haven't been blogging. Have been really busy and lazy. I guess I'll start again.

I was neva the practical person. I always deal with other pple's emotions first. I am always taking care of how others feel and I try my best not to say or do anything to make the person feel bad/angry/sad, etc. To me, as long as the person feels happy, I'm quite willing to do anything within my means. I'm usually easy-going coz I want others to be happy so I usually agree with everything as long as it seems fine with me. But I have problems keeping up with my easy-going personality when I'm to blame when something bad happens. I become quite defensive and argue my way thru. My tolerance level for agreeing drops drastically. I hate to admit that it is entirely my fault. Can something that goes wrong be entirely a person's fault. Do we look at situational factors that could have contributed to the mistake made? Well I guess it lies on a continuum: to what extent it's caused by internal (personal) factors or external (situational) factors. I think most pple tend to attrbute their own mistakes to external factors, but others will attribute it to that person's internal factors.

Maybe I'm strong headed and always want to try to put my point across. But I've tone down lots of it. It also hit me hard when pple deal with the practical side of my mistake. Being an emotional person, I feel neglected in my emotional needs. I will end up feeling very bad and guilty abt what I've done. I realised that this is my weakness, I really need to be strong emotionally so as to deal with the situation practically. But yet retaining the emotional sensitivity towards other pple.

I dun have control over how others treat me and I dun have the right to tell others what to do. The only thing within my control is my character and how I treat others. So I have to perfect it and I can proudly say that I've done it right.